This blog is about the good things I find in life. I really should blog about it more because I have so many good things in my life…which may be why I have such little time to blog about them.
Today I was amazed at my own patience. There has been quite a bit of bickering and arguing going on in my house lately. With the car breaking down, Sean passing away, Sharing a small house with my mother, Kevin breaking his thumb, medical bills, my own sleep deprivation and the new demands of having a child tensions are high and life is hectic, it’s to be expected. Not that this makes it okay, just normal.
Well, I don’t want to be normal. I want to be better than that and I know that myself and my family can be. For the past few days I have walked away from numerous arguements. Things that usually would have escalated have instead gone no where because I’ve refused to take part in it. This is so not like me, and I realized that today after walking away from an arguement.
I never realized how much having a harmonious home means to me. I’m changing the way I’ve been for as long as I can remember so that I can have the peace in my home that I so strongly desire. Of course, I think walking away from things may just cause them to build up within myself so things will need to be addressed at some point, but for now the thing I want most is a peaceful place for myself and those I love.
I thought I would have felt more resentment towards the people I’ve been bickering with, and sometimes I do feel like I’m the only one really making an effort to put an end to the fighting, but I’m surprised at how much patience I have. Sometimes I feel like I’m letting myself down, putting up with things I’ve always said I would never put up with in my home, but earlier this week I finally turned things over to the Lord and maybe that is why I have found myself with so much patience.
Sometimes it only takes one person to make a difference, I suppose I’m the one with the power to be that person. I just pray that the Lord will allow me to keep from being a doormat and letting others walk all over me just to keep from arguing.
I’ll keep it up as long as I can, though somehow I need to get everyone else on the band wagon so it’s not just my responsibility. After all, school starts in a couple weeks which will be just one more added stress for me every day and will strain the patience the Lord has blessed me with.
I love my family and all that they do for me every day. I’ve been blessed with a wonderfully diverse family and they keep it interesting to say the least.
